Poor fingers

[venera787]

It got to a point when I have to put a patch on my finger because I ripped the skin so much that it hurts to use this finger (like holding a pen). I don't think it's due to me seeing "imperfection" in my body, it just kinda provokes me when I feel some dry skin that pokes out from the fresh part of the finger. I skin pick when I'm worried, when I'm bored any time. It's like a need to constantly do something with your hands. Sometimes inspecting smalls objects or spinning something in your hands helps. I try to tap my fingers, snap them, scratch the surface of my nails (I don't struggle with nail biting, yet sometimes rip off the borders of the nails from the area where they dig into the flesh, when they slightly detach from the main body of the nail. Yet I also rip off the skin under the nails). It wanna get myself some sort of a toy, but antistress things don't really appeal to me. Maybe a spinning ring but I'm not a fan of putting something on my fingers or arms. And my skin gets kinda dry which provokes as wellll.