You want it? I got it

LxMisa but it's not "a bird in a cage", but an expensive decorative doll. He likes having her on his shelf, sometimes picking up to dress up or play with it. An then putting back on the shelf under his watch.

I can say that I had learned to listen to normal music just recently (some years ago). Back in the day I couldn't listen to anything that didn't have amen breaks or tune overload (like in speedcore) on the background...
And it's all thanks to running into mashcore - shoebill in particular, I listen only to them - one day when searching for "femboy" in vk.

I wanna start prompting ppl with drawings, like mutual requests/gifts and so on but idk where to start and where to go HELP

Hc that Raiden liked Godzilla movies because he had a macro fetish at an early age(not realising it obviously) and was imagining himself being a giant destroying cities.


I need to put more weird fetishes on characters for my own good.

People who are 30+ years old and are in fandoms (not necessarily interacting with other fans or debates) I RESPECT
People who have dedicated years to the same favourite character or media I RESPECT
People who are self-shipping openly I RESPECT
People who headcanon weird fetishes to their favs I RESPECT
People who are in almost dead fandoms that are run by them and a pigeon I RESPECT
People who are not afraid to draw their "cringe/weird" fetishes with their favs I RESPECT

Officially finished Deus ex on all 3 endings. Now it's my Holy Trinity: mgs2, Deus ex, system shock 2. But on the first walkthrough I missed some things like talking to Morpheus or SAVING PAUL (I didn't know you can ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ). It's also unusual to see how JC is so chill and indifferent about his childhood. Like "Yeah my parents were killed when I was 12. Yeah I suspected that me and Paul are engineered". Compared to all the dmc and mgs themes about living through the consequences of your past.. And this mf gives zero fuck. Or at least looks like it.
Speaking of mgs2, it's sad that I you don't get more info about nanomachines. Yeah Raiden has transferred blood with nanos, but they're also in his body, right? How do they look? Are they in his muscles and brain? How were they injected? HOW DO THE CODECS WORK, DO YOU JUST SPEAK TELEPATHICALLY?? Because in Deus ex you can only receive logs through your augmentations.
Simons' voice is so smooth, fucker talks asmr. The boss fights there are so funny and easy, before you know it, it's over. Simons died from two rockets...
( Let's do rofls )
( My Denton of choice is albino )
( Part of magma canvas )
Idk why I have this urge to draw Denton bros as anime girls. Might update it with different JC models if I ever get to finish it.
Also if anyone up for drawing together – I'm in for it (If I manage to collect brain halfs in a heap).
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I'm back to watching Ace Attorney (started back in 2020) and



It was at the first part of the trial, with these two playing along. Godot has fucking Vergil hair and D4nte's character.
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Dorohedoro devil sona I've been thinking about.
( beta ver )
The main perk is that she imitates voices for fun (devils fun is nothing fun for humans and magic users..). From simple pranks to whispering intrusive thoughts to ppl, sometimes leading to them killing themselves or something else hehe.
( Demon Nikaido )
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Sooner or later I'll finish fic with Dante stuffing his gut with implied DanteLady. Just you fucking wait till I drop it like a nuke(it's not that good)

Guess I gotta draw raw bones and muscles bitches myself, because when it comes to body variety drawings ppl usually only mean chubby/fat bodies. And it makes me feel left behind, like "yeah ssry but you don’t fit the criteria so just hush, go". Not trying to complain but it just feels kinda odd. Almost like that privilege dogma, that if you're born a specific way you can't have troubles a priority and need to shut up because someone has it worse. Yeah thanks m8, I understand that you want validation because you've been through hell but that doesn't give you any rights to treat others like shit.
And when it comes to women it's only a stereotypical femme skinny girl with stick arms or big sexy curvy/muscular woman. I'm fine with those and sometimes like drawing those but you get tired of seeing every same shit again and again, come on.
Anyway on my way to draw characters with the ribs sticking out and dry torn muscles to boost my ego.
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It's been kinda hard to make sentences lately. I start with one idea and construction, then decide to rebuild it, forget how I started it and already switch to a different thought and structure. Loneliness really affects your abilities lol.

It got to a point when I have to put a patch on my finger because I ripped the skin so much that it hurts to use this finger (like holding a pen). I don't think it's due to me seeing "imperfection" in my body, it just kinda provokes me when I feel some dry skin that pokes out from the fresh part of the finger. I skin pick when I'm worried, when I'm bored any time. It's like a need to constantly do something with your hands. Sometimes inspecting smalls objects or spinning something in your hands helps. I try to tap my fingers, snap them, scratch the surface of my nails (I don't struggle with nail biting, yet sometimes rip off the borders of the nails from the area where they dig into the flesh, when they slightly detach from the main body of the nail. Yet I also rip off the skin under the nails). It wanna get myself some sort of a toy, but antistress things don't really appeal to me. Maybe a spinning ring but I'm not a fan of putting something on my fingers or arms. And my skin gets kinda dry which provokes as wellll.

I can't understand what's my problem. No matter what I draw it all looks bland compared to what others draw. I know that comparing yourself with other artists is kinda dumb, but I can't stop this feeling of being "out of place", like that one freak who think they're the part of the group while everybody looks at them with awkward smiles.
I can't say I don't have skills or imagination. But still something feels off. And that something shows that you'll never be a part of something.
( anyway I got bored )